Saturday, 12 January 2013

A new year without resolutions








Red blouse and checked jacket-Metro Plaza,black shorts,ring and stockings-New Market,sling-Simpark Mall,shoes-B.K.Market

Even though 2013 started with a whiskey shot,as the crescendo went higher in the nightclubs near my place,I lost myself in my dreams with my best friend sleeping next to me. After a few drinks are downed,the hookah starts to weave its magic and the world seems unbelievably happy. 2012 was a year of all things new. I got back to the dating game after years,I got into a B school,I started dancing at the parties,I tried to get over my obsession with dance and I fell in love with myself all over again. It was a year of success and failure. It was a year of accepting my flaws and being happy with them. It was a year of rediscovering myself. So,on 1st Jan,2013,around 2 a.m.,when I was sleeping peacefully in the arms of the girl who has always loved me unconditionally,I realised I was a content person. I have accepted my defeat as far as many of my earlier passions are concerned. I no more think that I have it in me to become a good dancer. I no more fight with my mom and tell her that I want to be alone because it's fashionably poetic. I know I'm not ready for a relationship. I probably would never be ready. But I know I don't want to die alone. I know the empty walls of my room give me the creeps. I know death doesn't smell like sweet baby breath and I know all my dark fantasies were fake. I love life no matter what I claim. I broke many promises and I'm hardly perfect. While stepping into the new year,I didn't want to fool myself with many more false promises. I want 2013 to be another year of imperfection. I want to make mistakes. I want to fall in love,again. I'm not afraid to fall out of love either. I want to laugh,I want to cry. I want to count stars and sleep with my mouth wide open. I want to live my life to the fullest even if that means losing out on a few 'opportunities for the betterment of my career'. I want to have fun with my friends and go to bed with no complaints. Who knew it'd take three bad relationships to make an optimist out of me?
                                                                The pictures are from the semi-meet I had told you about. I've not been able to meet my girls that frequently ever since college started. I more than made up for it in December with one meet and two semi-meets. This one happened when Sushmita came to Kolkata. I've been an ardent follower of her blog for years! So,Anu suggested we all meet for shopping. So,we went for a shopping extravaganza at B.K.Market first where all of them bought shoes except for yours truly(yes,contrary to popular belief,I don't shop impulsively. I buy everything after a lot of planning). Then we had chaat,phuchka and tikiya chhola at Lord Sinha Road,lusted over some more shoes at Lady Gaga,sat at the ground floor of Metro Plaza and had an enthusiastic discussion about Delhi men,Masaba Gupta and quirky prints. So,a fun day without making a hole in my wallet,you see.

12 comments:

  1. " I want 2013 to be another year of imperfection"....bravo girl.Liked your spirit. How can I be like you ? (:

    And, you look poisonous!(I am sure you know the meaning of it ;))
    Love,

    Bong's Belleza

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  2. Happy new year! :D
    I hope you get all that you want from 2013, and more :)

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  3. O.my.God! U remember how u said I sound like you a few years earlier? Now I feel you sound like me a few years later! And btw I love yours slings more than anything. Not just this one, but a lot others too.

    *Note to self* Visit B.K. Market when you're Kolkata this summer.

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  4. hmm..sm1's having loads of fun :) Good to see you being yourself. Happy New Year :)

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  5. That was very well written! Lovely and so True!!

    I love your shoes :)


    Love
    Sehar

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  6. Love your jacket. I love the Burberry checks and its too good!!!
    And you're expressions are so cute! Love the red and yellow combo! So quirky!!! :)
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  7. Wow. I Love it! You have so so great blog! <3

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  8. Your Jacket is so so pretty !! Love the outfit :D
    xoxo <3

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  9. lovely post....you have written so much on self improvement through self learning..which is such a positive way to live life...

    it was fun fun fun meeting you and chatting with you..wish we could have met for longer..next time for sure!!!! :)

    http://www.myunfinishedlife.com/

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  10. Hey you look so so cute. you must have had loads of fun.
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  11. Loved the way you express yourself. Both in words and expressions. and yeah... I too want the blue ring...

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